While I’m Growing Up

Somewhere around that stage of 3rd or 4th grade, kids tend to be prompted with the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” At that point, I probably answered something along the lines of “teacher” or possibly even “mom” (obviously marriage would have been implied for that particular response).

If I was prompted with that very same question today, my answer would be, “Your guess is as good as mine.”

A couple weeks ago, the staff worker for our chapter of InterVarsity Christian Fellowship gave a talk from the book of Proverbs on planning. One of the main points he emphasized was that to have a good plan, you also need a vision. Because so much of our lives are subject to change, that vision doesn’t necessarily mean that we have to set up exact checkpoints to reach the end goal.

You know how when you’re drawing a line on a piece of paper, it’s always harder to make it straight if all you focus on is the end of the pen? But, if you concentrate on the point where the end of your line needs to be, it turns out fairly straight.

At this point in my life, I’m not longer in 4th grade (though some days I wish I were…but then I quickly realize that would mean I would have to eventually go back to braces and return to being content in the moment). Neither ┬áhave I figured out what I want to be when I “grow up.” Up until this summer, I’ve been attempting to draw my line by watching the point of my pen, but as time goes on, a vision for what I want to be (or more importantly, a vision that is beginning to line up with what God wants in me) has become a bit clearer. Sure there are quite a few small things I want to do in between now and my end goal. Learn to speak Arabic, become a better photographer, spend more time in prayer, tackle microprocessors, be content in any circumstance, and figure out how to read maps are all good goals (personally anyways…you have the full right to disagree), but in and of themselves are extremely insignificant.

If I had to respond to the question “What do you want to be when you grow up?” this very moment, my response would simply be “I’ll always be growing up.”

Got to thank God for that.